Here I am, mr. positive on a new age.
A month ago me and her broke up. After nearly three years of knowing her, it seems she has vanished from my life.
Nevertheless, I'm getting over her. But so is my motivation for certain matters. Such as school.
I'm not the guy who's letting himself get friendzoned that easy, you could call it a re-friendzone, the thing she tried. Is this what happens to nice guys?
Yeah, I think it does! I think being nice is good, but just as friends. If you want a girl, you'd better play a little hard to get haha!
Then I think: can't some girls/ladies/women just understand that nice guys deserve a chance too? That's what bothering me.
For as far my education goes: I really want to move on, but the only thing I need right now is somebody to love.
Neil Young said in one of his songs: "keeps me searching for a heart of gold". This is what all nice guys hope to find.
So, after losing what I thought to be "the one true love" a new age is approaching upon me.
I've met new people when going out and, sadly, most girls are already taken! Such a competition here in the Netherlands.
All the new people seem to be nice. They are all different of the friends which I already have. Some like to party hard, others just don't know where they are going and seem to be happy with it.
Also, after such a breakup I've had, I noticed that my friends are real friends. They actually care? I'm a blessed man.
Yeah I'm as free as a bird now. Free from the chains that were blocking me from following my dreams. Such is the blindness love can bring.
I felt real shackled in the relationship. Only after the breakup you'll have this moment of realisation that you wern't really happy, just imagined to be.
Would I be ready for a new relationship? Yes! I can't wait to find somebody who deserves to be loved! Maybe it's someone in my hometown, maybe someone at the other side of the world! Who knows?
It's just the confusion that is striking me now. Is this the education I wish to follow? Why is it that nobody hears my voice?
Oh well, I've decided to take control of my faith. I do not hesitate to approach a girl anymore: I just do it and hope for the best.
I've lost more and more weight due to healthy food and sports.
I want to reach black belt in my sport Judo, therefor I'm training twice a week now and more intensive.
I want to create the body of a god(and no, not buddha!) to know how it's like. Luckily, the only thing that needs to happen is to lose 10 more kilograms and that's done. The muscles are in quite good shape already.
This summer... I'm going for a holiday(probably Croatia). Take my guitar with me on a road trip there. Once arrived at my destination I would love to feel how it's like there. Play some songs, let people sing along. That's one of my biggest dreams. So simple, so inferior in needs. Campfire+guitar+love.
Now you know why a new age is upon me. Thanks for reading! Oh and I will keep on crafting guitars, don't you worry!